Life as it is

"Yeah i'm a girl... But i'm like this person right here, sitting all by himself with his face buried in his palms... Down and depressed... just like that.."

Its december!! In less than a month it'll be a new year, new calendar, new hopes and new resolutions to some...

Its great to look forward to a whole new year... To turn over a new page... but i took a step back and take a good look at my life this year...

2010...

I turned 30 early January this year. 2 days later i met with a dreadful accident that snatched my confidence in driving. I was carless for more than a month.

February comes and once i got my car back my landlord told me that she's giving her daughter the house and i have to move out. After series of house hunting, I moved out in April, in the same residential area.

Despite the frogs infestation of the house, i remained loyal to that house. Living alone in a semiD... is terribly lonely. My parents were not happy bout it. But with my superbusy life... what can i do..

June came knocking in and on the 7th my beloved father passed away... while i was in Putrajaya.. Caught us by surprise and i was really down... i fell sick so often after that that my mom had come to stay with me.

Mid of July, my office moved to Cyberjaya... To a new building... And thanks to that, some 'extra unseen population' there began to follow us back to our houses to a point where it freak the h*ll out of my mom. Since then, my mom and i seek refuge at my brother's house in wangsa maju...

Being slapped by the bitterness of this life one too many times, i fall sick again. Approaching August, i was admitted to Ampang Puteri due to chronic tonsilitis that caused my temperature to hike up to more than 40 degrees! As a result, the specialists removed my tonsils and i was on icy cool diet for a long time due to the surgery wounds.

In the spirit of ramadhan, i persuaded my mom to returned to my 'haunted' house and try to work things out so that i dont have to travel from kl to cyberjaya everyday. So we went back to my house in early September and everything went well during break fast until the moment i was waiting for Subuh and i realized that i was sharing the house with a GIGANTIC KOMODO DRAGON!!!

Again, my heart was crushed and i realized that i'm about to lose my home again.

Without any hesitation, i went on house hunting again and find myself another house somewhere further in Seri Putra, Bangi. After a melancholic Eid Mubarak, i moved into my new house in October....

Since then, i tried to find solace and try to put myself together again... Of course there are other issues that i encountered along the way that i can enclose here...

And so i could actually sit next to the guy up here and too, bury my face in my hands...

Then i'll look up again and look hard ahead and wonder what's waiting for me next...

And i'll pray really hard to Allah the Almighty to grant me strength in facing this life and its challenges..........