Ramadhan: Tracking back and moving on...

Assalamualaikum and good night (If i ever have anymore reader here)

Its year 2012, and we are in the mid of our fasting month... Ramadhan Mubarak all! Fifteen days passed by... Well, i will try to be at my best for the remaining 15 days left. (Banner above is from my company yeah)

I can see that i have developed cobwebs here as i was sooo absorbed with Facebook and LinkedIn... Its like we have created our own personal journal there!

But of course, nothing feels like blogging, even if it is to yourself... More things to write, pictures to be attached... Type your heart out!

Sometimes when i reflect my journey all of these while, maybe i do digressed instead of progress. I used to whine a lot here but at the same time i get things done, beautifully... Blogging serves as an avenue for me to express my grouses, so that i can stay sane.

Not like facebook... I made new friends, contacts, get news etc but... I ended up having have to reserve myself although i failed to do it most of the times... I often get judged miserably and misunderstood. People tend to understand me differently (And that is in a bad way)...

So am back to blogging...

Will table to heavier and darker stuff later... Lets talk about happier things... Afterall, its Ramadhan!

With my office being in Cyberjaya now, my choice of food has grown thinner. Trip to Putrajaya's PARAM is a bit far and i have to resort to alternative that is closer to home, Bandar Seri Putra that is... There is one huge PARAM which is further up BSP and a small scale PARAM very near my house. So paham2 la where would i go. I must say this time around i have poor luck with chicken... :(

At first all is ok, i have been staying loyal to this one particular stall selling rice with some choices of lauk. I never fail to take sambal kerang. However, one fine day i got stuck at a workshop for my car and my favourite kerang has finished. Ended up taking chicken instead. When i was already halfway eating only I realized that the chicken is giving out 'smell' and tasted funny. That night and entire of the following day i was busy vomitting and actively visiting the lavatory. Became so dehydrated...

So next, i resort to KFC (Pengaruh rakan x sebaya hahah)... But again surprisingly the chicken served was not at par to the quality expected... And again, with me having diarrhoea :(... Letih tau!

So then i chose to enjoy arabic cuisine instead, i.e Lamb kabsah. And today I'm with mi familia, enjoying home-cooked food. Alhamdulillah... But then after Asr earlier i went to PARAM Wangsa Melawati in search for the famous Cendol Wahab (Since 1986 tau no kiddin'!) ..  Then i walked a bit further and i found a stall selling delicious looking pudding truffle... Managed to take a snap before gulping it (Below).

Sedap... So just now i surfed for its recipe (Seriously i'm a disaster in the kitchen huhu) and i came across this wonder site called Aku.Zack. She shared quite a number of recipe actually.. Bila2 nanti will try to do it :)

Anyway i seriously feel great to be back... :) Selamat berpuasa semua :)

The Universe

Some people think they rule the earth. Its them who make all the decisions. Its them who can decide who can eat or who can breath.

'If i say dont move, dont u dare go anywhere. If u do, u'll be punished!'

To h#ll with these people. As though they make the world go round. As though they provide the oxygen. That things simply go according to their needs.

And they can mercilessly bring people down and damper ones spirit should things dont go their way. Zalim... sangat zalim.

May Allah show them they way... the right way dealing with other people. Ehsan bukan sekadar dgn org yg hirarki lebih tinggi. Ehsan goes sesama manusia tanpa mengira darjat, keturunan dan usia. U respect me i respect u more...

If u dont know whats going on, DONT ASSUME n get worked up for nothing. Thats the problem with many, ASSUMPTIONS, ASSUMPTIONS.. ASSUMPTIONS!!!

If u think u can assume that much and able to derive so many 'theories', go and do PhD, or work in any research institutes where they have better use for ur abilities. Dont just sit around and open forum selling ur theories. Blh m,engundang fitnah dan ada unsur mengumpat.

Gosh if only i have other ways... Allah the Ever Merciful... give me strength!

Life as it is

"Yeah i'm a girl... But i'm like this person right here, sitting all by himself with his face buried in his palms... Down and depressed... just like that.."

Its december!! In less than a month it'll be a new year, new calendar, new hopes and new resolutions to some...

Its great to look forward to a whole new year... To turn over a new page... but i took a step back and take a good look at my life this year...

2010...

I turned 30 early January this year. 2 days later i met with a dreadful accident that snatched my confidence in driving. I was carless for more than a month.

February comes and once i got my car back my landlord told me that she's giving her daughter the house and i have to move out. After series of house hunting, I moved out in April, in the same residential area.

Despite the frogs infestation of the house, i remained loyal to that house. Living alone in a semiD... is terribly lonely. My parents were not happy bout it. But with my superbusy life... what can i do..

June came knocking in and on the 7th my beloved father passed away... while i was in Putrajaya.. Caught us by surprise and i was really down... i fell sick so often after that that my mom had come to stay with me.

Mid of July, my office moved to Cyberjaya... To a new building... And thanks to that, some 'extra unseen population' there began to follow us back to our houses to a point where it freak the h*ll out of my mom. Since then, my mom and i seek refuge at my brother's house in wangsa maju...

Being slapped by the bitterness of this life one too many times, i fall sick again. Approaching August, i was admitted to Ampang Puteri due to chronic tonsilitis that caused my temperature to hike up to more than 40 degrees! As a result, the specialists removed my tonsils and i was on icy cool diet for a long time due to the surgery wounds.

In the spirit of ramadhan, i persuaded my mom to returned to my 'haunted' house and try to work things out so that i dont have to travel from kl to cyberjaya everyday. So we went back to my house in early September and everything went well during break fast until the moment i was waiting for Subuh and i realized that i was sharing the house with a GIGANTIC KOMODO DRAGON!!!

Again, my heart was crushed and i realized that i'm about to lose my home again.

Without any hesitation, i went on house hunting again and find myself another house somewhere further in Seri Putra, Bangi. After a melancholic Eid Mubarak, i moved into my new house in October....

Since then, i tried to find solace and try to put myself together again... Of course there are other issues that i encountered along the way that i can enclose here...

And so i could actually sit next to the guy up here and too, bury my face in my hands...

Then i'll look up again and look hard ahead and wonder what's waiting for me next...

And i'll pray really hard to Allah the Almighty to grant me strength in facing this life and its challenges..........

Whaddaya want from me???

Howdy friends... I gues i've lost touch with many of you here in the blogosphere...

Havebeen on FB for a while... Have met many sorts of people with various attitudes...

But its not easy making friends... Its even harder when you're addressing strangers...

I've had people deleting me from their list because of silly reasons:

1. 1. I didn't reply their chat because i was simply not at my table!
2. 2. They dont like my wall posts
3. 3. I used poor language! Not 'Oxford' level command of language.
4. 4. I used 'Kawaii Desu' as id instead of my real name...

... and many other silly reasons... There was once and old chap scolded me on my wall because he claimed i used SMS language, which i dont. For all the uncles and aunts, please sufr with open mind.. Some people; like me use fb and blog as a getway, please dont expect perfect language here..

I got one sms from a stranger by mistake.

X: Abg hp kte tu off r btry dh hbs tu (What in the world???)
Me: Sorry but who's this?
X: Opppsss sory.. Ths my mom's number,wnt msg my fiance.. wrong number
Me: Ic, may i know who's ur mom? I tak cam no sbb abru tukar hp (white lie)
X:Excuse.. I slh key in 1 no je ok
M: Wrong no ic. Thought perhaps ur mom is my colleague. Ok
X: No... Bcz my mom is a housewife (X puas hati tu)

Bila dilihat... adakah aku yg konpius??? Itulah... sms lagi tgh2 mlm... kan dah dapat reply phsyco..

Kepada semua pembaca di luar sana yang mengambil berat tentang tatabahasa dan nahu, dengan ini dimaklumkan bahawa ruangan ini bukanlah untuk anda... kalau nak jadi polis bahasa serta kesopanan dan kesusilaan, gi berletiaq kat namewee tu ke...

Saya juga ingin memohon maaf to all that somehow or rather offended directly or indirectly with the content of my sites. I dont mean to offend people...

See you again...

I'm back!!!!!

More to write after this... To regain my momentum in expressing my thoughts and ideas on paper :)

See you all soon!!

Its Earth Hour again!!

Its has been quite a while but i'm stealing some time to remind all my dear friends to join in the Earth Hour today at 8:30pm worldwide.

Let's make it happen!!

And hopefully... this is not just an annual celeberation or something for fun... Do this for the coming generation..

Save energy, save water... and save the Earth!!!

Where am i?? Where have I been?

Assalamualaikum…..
Howdy folks!! It has been quite a while since I last pen down anything here. Most of the crucial updates of my life have been posted on Facebook. Yeah, u hear me rite.. I've been with FB for quite a while now. Since 2007 but only late last year I break the dormant status. Since for me blogging is quite taxing as I am used to post long entries so I end up Facebooking…

Do u Facebook??

Why not? I'm not here to promote Facebook or any kind of social utility tools online that would definitely include
blogging…

For me, we need to get out sometimes. Even its just being online… Its like your gateway to freedom. Freedom of speech, freedom of guilt, freedom of mind…

There are of course many unfavorable and frustrating events occurs @ work… things that we detest, we disapprove and even loathed… Sort of happen, out of our control… And ur not even in the position to disagree.. Many of us often bury our sorrows and grieves be it domestic problems or work issues… best buried down our chest, we say… but can we stand the agony?

So blogging or posting angry status in FB will be a way to channel your frustration and grieves… Giving u a peace in mind… if ur lucky, there might be friends there that will console and comfort you, giving wise advice…

And the storm calms again…

But……

How do feel when u have to share this so-called space of freedom with your superiors??? How do u feel to have them reading your blogs without having them to change the way they feel about you? Reading alone can cause severe misunderstanding, especially towards entries that are posted emotionally… In the end what u say here might be used against u…

But if you are lucky to have an open-minded superiors, you still have to face the bitterness of the fact that your colleagues might desert you in fear of losing their much treasured freedom… Who can blame them?

So… its not a free world after all…

But quick questions, feel free to answer:

• Why a tiny mistake is likely to be amplified and even possible to erase huge positivities?
  
• Why people like to point fingers so much, not to troubleshoot?
  
• Which one is important, your pride, or one' feelings and charity?
  
• Do u criticize people like no one else is better than you??
  
• When u address any issues or points in mind, do you actually consider others' feelings?
  
• Do you enjoy putting others down? Why?
  
• Is it difficult to accept oneself as the way they are?
  

I miss blogging and I defitiely miss visiting you guys…
Anyway, I'll be back soon… See ya

P/s: it's going November already?? Time flies like no one's business…